Well, yesterday I went from being totally excited to a little worried. I think in the doctor's office all I could think of was the fact that I was 3cm, which is a lot further along than I thought I'd be. I was excited about this simply because I'm sick of being pregnant. It wasn't until I got home and googled having extra amniotic fluid (polyhydramnios) that things started coming together and I realized I should maybe be concerned. Extra aminotic fluid is experienced by 1 to 2% of prenant women. There are a few causes. It's reading about these causes that freaks me out and I probably should have left myself ignorant.
Either I'm diabetic (which I'm not) and making excess fluid. Or something is wrong with the baby that hinders it from swallowing the fluid. 30% of the these situations are associated with Down syndrome.
But my doctor tells me to lay off the carbs/sugar. So I'm hoping that, though I'm not diabetic, I may eat more sugar in a day than any one else you know, and though the internet didn't tell me this, maybe that's causing the excess fluid. I really hope so.
It all makes sense now. Why she flips breach and un-breach so easily. Why it's so much harder to breath this time around. Why everyone always thinks I have two babies in there. If I'm not constantly giving this to the Lord I'll go crazy. She'll come soon and there's no amount of worrying I can do right now to change whoever she is in there. Whatever condition Lola is in, I know she's beautiful. She is precious and loved.

So I'm taking deep breaths every now and then, and trying to find enough food to keep me from starving while I avoid carbs and sugar. Pray for me, as I am probably just overreacting.