Not sure what's gotten me into this slump. Heat maybe? Running out of things to do inside, probably. Yesterday, I saw myself as the wallering, ungrateful, agonizing-over-my-struggles Mommy that I was being.
Lola crying and clinging to my feet. Lola eating and choking on all the unswept nastiness on the floors. Breaking up fights between screaming, emotional girls, who are tired of the inside of this house. Cleaning up Kate's pee that has not made it into a toilet in days). I was keeping quiet, holding in my frustration, until I was dumping laundry on the couch and slammed my knee into the coffee table, and then I exploded and just said, "AAaahhh! My life is so hard!" And then I thought, "wow, I just said that out loud." And hoped the girls didn't hear me being stupid.
Oh, sometimes it just feels good to be immature for a couple of minutes. My world is small and filled with little fit throwers, and in losing sight of the big picture I guess I start to act 3.
I'm fine now actually. I was just holding Lola and she was talking to me (which sounds like, "ptka blatkuh" It doesn't sound cute when you read it, but I want to eat her when she talks to me like that) and playing with her fat feet. So, I'm good now. :)
3 comments:
based on the photo from your previous post, I think you need to wear more supportive shoes and less flips flops. I'm glad you're fine now... your life is kind of hard. Being a mom is hard. You can have 3 minutes of immaturity every now and then, I say. then when you yell out loud, it helps you realize that you have it pretty good (cute babies gibbering at you with baby fat). I don't know. I don't have a lot of wisdom.
Amanda I totally understand...we have been having the same kind of time of at the Keltner household as well!I think the heat does make everyone go a little crazy:)
I shall join your cry. I'm agreeing with you on the heat. My kids can't even get outside and this week long tummy trouble isn't helping any of us. And then there are those amazing moments when Adelle is talking to the bird hanging over her bouncy seat and Alayna is quietly singing to her babies and the boys are working together to make amazing lego creations - and it's great. I think every mom is right there with you.
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